I am WORSE than a DUDE.

Okay, so all of you know I sort of blogged a bit about Wes….mentioned on Facebook that I was REALLY starting to dig him.. BLAH BLAH BLAH. (None of that has changed…by the way. Still dig him.)
BUT, funny thing… the MINUTE I say something out loud…for all to hear, I sort of have a little internal ‘freak out’.

I get TOTALLY commitment phobic…EVEN if the word committed has not even come up.
Yes, it’s sad….but true. I am the total GUY in all relationships I’m in. I really get into panic mode, shut down completely and try to phase the guy out!

I want to:

1. Be in TOTAL control.
2. Call ALL the shots.
3. NOT be smothered or pressured.
4. AVOID discussing ‘where we are at in this relationship’.
5. This list actually goes on and on…but I think you get my point.



Seriously. I’m a total guy. So… Now that you all know that I am just a FREAK OUT waiting to happen…I think you will ALL be supportive if I tell you I will NOT be posting any gushy details about me and Wes.

We’ll leave it at this. He’s very laid back. Fun to hang out with. Not smothering me at this point. All is good. NO stress. NO pressure. JUST the way I like it. Hopefully I can find some funny crap to share about my little punks (AKA Wyatt and Chase) that will amuse you…


Those posts will have to serve as a distraction’ from my dating life … for a while at least. Until I realize that maybe being in a relationship is NOT the same thing as contracting the plague. Stay tuned.